Monthly Archives: January 2011

I’m tiny… you’re humongous

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This morning I was dressing Holland for church and she looks at me and says, “Mommy, I’m tiny and you are humongous.” I would have been offended had this not been coming from a two year old, but I laughed and said, “that’s right sweetie.”

Her statement got me thinking… she thinks she is tiny because she is, first of all and because she is a small child. She thinks I am big (I am not going to use the word humongous because I am still a little offended :)) because I am not only bigger than her in size, I am her authority.

What struck me by her statement most of all, however, is not what she said but the way she said it. She came up to me, nuzzled in my arms and said those words to me as if she were longing for me to pick her up and cradle her and let her know that I was going to protect her. I picked up on this cue and I picked up my baby girl, nuzzled her in my arms and said, “I am bigger than you, my precious girl, I love you and I will protect you.” She let me hold her for a moment, kissed me and hopped down and started playing again.

She wanted reassurance that I was not only able to protect her, but that I was willing as well.

As I sat watching her play I thought about my relationship with God. How I am tiny and He is humongous. He is not only able to protect and love me, He is willing to as well.

Ephesians 6:10-11

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power. Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.”

God is able to protect us from anything, but we must be willing to trust that He is able and stand firmly in His word.

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My first post

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Ok… so I am starting a blog.I have a lot of thoughts. I used to journal on a regular basis and that has gone by the wayside along with regular showers.

I figured that I could kill two birds with one stone by starting to jot down my thoughts in a blog, even if it is inconsistent. I am not even sure yet if I want people to read it, so I am keeping it to myself for the time being… maybe I will share if I feel like have enough thoughts worth sharing :).

I wanted to kind of create a theme… I do better with structure, so I figured if I structured myself then I would have a better chance of creating something worth sharing.

My days are filled with hugs and kisses, screams and hitting, throwing food and kissing boo-boos and I wouldn’t trade one minute. Not to say that I don’t get frustrated, believe me, I do. But, when it comes to the end of the day and I see my precious babies in their beds I thank God for each moment I have with them, no matter how hard.

Something that has been weighing heavily on my heart, however, is the question of how I am growing myself so that I can become a better mother, wife and primarily follower of Christ?

The simple answer is: I am not.

At the end of the day I feel like I am too exhausted to do anything else after the laundry is done, shirts are ironed, the final cleaning is finished and I check my email the last thing I want to do is have my brain on any longer than it has to be.

I don’t know if any other moms can relate with me, sometimes I feel very alone…

I have decided that I am going to be honest with myself and give me a break when I need one, but I am also going to look for lessons in every day life… lessons from my children, lessons from my husband, lessons from the grocery store clerk, lessons from Dr. Seuss :).

God gives us glimpses of Himself every day… I am on a journey to start looking.