I figured that I could kill two birds with one stone by starting to jot down my thoughts in a blog, even if it is inconsistent. I am not even sure yet if I want people to read it, so I am keeping it to myself for the time being… maybe I will share if I feel like have enough thoughts worth sharing :).
I wanted to kind of create a theme… I do better with structure, so I figured if I structured myself then I would have a better chance of creating something worth sharing.
My days are filled with hugs and kisses, screams and hitting, throwing food and kissing boo-boos and I wouldn’t trade one minute. Not to say that I don’t get frustrated, believe me, I do. But, when it comes to the end of the day and I see my precious babies in their beds I thank God for each moment I have with them, no matter how hard.
Something that has been weighing heavily on my heart, however, is the question of how I am growing myself so that I can become a better mother, wife and primarily follower of Christ?
The simple answer is: I am not.
At the end of the day I feel like I am too exhausted to do anything else after the laundry is done, shirts are ironed, the final cleaning is finished and I check my email the last thing I want to do is have my brain on any longer than it has to be.
I don’t know if any other moms can relate with me, sometimes I feel very alone…
I have decided that I am going to be honest with myself and give me a break when I need one, but I am also going to look for lessons in every day life… lessons from my children, lessons from my husband, lessons from the grocery store clerk, lessons from Dr. Seuss :).
God gives us glimpses of Himself every day… I am on a journey to start looking.