Monthly Archives: July 2011

Hidden in my heart


Today has been a day of uncertianty. Not knowing exactly where life is heading and the anxiety that comes with the unknown.

My daughter was “putting me to bed” with her kitties on the living room floor and I was full of worry rather than enjoying her imaginative play and the ability to rarely lie down while playing. I was covered up next to kitty and was thinking about all of the uncertianties of life, specificially with my husbands job. Right then I was convicted about anxiety. The scripture Philippians 4:6 came to mind:

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”

This scripture reminded me that I did not only not have to be anxious but I was commanded to not worry and give everything up to the Lord. In my randomness of thought I was then connected to another passage about worry and provision and how they are connected in Matthew chapter 6:

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life[e]?

” 28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.”

God will provide. But, ultimately His promises are true and I would have never remembered those promises in the midst of kitty bedtime had I not spent time hiding His Word in my heart.


God is good…


All the time.

All the time, God is good.

I am consistently learning about God’s goodness and provision; I know that he will provide but sometimes I get impatient and want Him to provide on my timeline.

God placed this scripture in front of me this morning out of 1 Samuel 13:

7b Saul remained at Gilgal, and all the troops with him were quaking with fear. 8 He waited seven days, the time set by Samuel; but Samuel did not come to Gilgal, and Saul’s men began to scatter. 9 So he said, “Bring me the burnt offering and the fellowship offerings.” And Saul offered up the burnt offering. 10 Just as he finished making the offering, Samuel arrived, and Saul went out to greet him.

11 “What have you done?” asked Samuel.

Saul replied, “When I saw that the men were scattering, and that you did not come at the set time, and that the Philistines were assembling at Mikmash, 12 I thought, ‘Now the Philistines will come down against me at Gilgal, and I have not sought the LORD’s favor.’ So I felt compelled to offer the burnt offering.”

13 “You have done a foolish thing,” Samuel said. “You have not kept the command the LORD your God gave you; if you had, he would have established your kingdom over Israel for all time. 14 But now your kingdom will not endure; the LORD has sought out a man after his own heart and appointed him ruler of his people, because you have not kept the LORD’s command.”

The background of this passage is that Saul was ready to fight the Philistines but he was told to wait seven days until Samuel came to give the offering to the Lord. Saul waited, but as his men were getting restless he decided to give the sacrifice instead of waiting any longer. Samuel tells him that he was foolish for being so impatient and basically gives him a warning that this is the beginning of the end for him.

How many times have I been Saul? I wait on God and think I am doing a good thing but ultimately I fall back on what I can control.

My children demonstrate this well. I tell them to wait for me to walk down the stairs: They don’t and they fall. I tell them to wait to eat their mac and cheese because it is too hot: They don’t and they burn their tongues.

God knows the purpose for waiting; even when we do not. He gives us periods of waiting in order to develop in us patience and contentment in our current circumstances.